Cold count down

I got a cold this past weekend..booo... that annoying cough that produces nothing. The joy I have though is the countdown to going home!!! 5 days. I will be going to indy right away then Rachel is coming to visit on the weekend then I am going to Lafayette!!! I am so stoked.

My Birthday 23 and still the baby

OMG I felt so stinking loved on my birthday ...all I can say is thank you papie! I was fearing a depressing feeling for my birthday especially when I lived with awesome roomates the past three years who ALWAYS made me feel very special on my birthday and now I live alone. However through the perks of facebook I got a countdown to my birthday from the friends in west laf and a countless (almost countless) amount of birthday wishes on my wall. That, by the way, I looked at all during work. If that was not enough I got cards and phone calls! Then one of the girls at worked rounded up some people from work and we went out for drinks and dinner.

One thing I just don't understand is why people want to take so many shots for their birthday and get drunk?? You don't feel good the next day and I don't know just dont get it ...sooo besides having to fight off (and not being too successful all the time) shots it was fun to be with people.

Debbie Downer

I have felt like the infamous Debbie Downer lately. I think it has been magnified by being on third shift (11pm-8am) last week and an awesome (yes that is a sarcastic awesome) phone conversation from a family member. Everything I think about is how negative my life is but it SO isn't- it's just so hard to think beyond myself. I believe that most of it comes down to I feel like my job brings absolutely no change for good, especially God, in this world. It's hard to get motivated to go to work for big ole' Nestle

But I did make chocolate banana bread tonight- there's a plus

Thanksgiving Update

So this Holiday has been surprisingly kinda nice. I got to Indy on Wednesday night and helped do prep cooking - I ended up with the task of baking which is never my role (that belonged to my sister who got married and they had dinner with the other family) never-the-less the desserts turned out really well, I think any way: two tarts and a pie.

I was able to see a bunch of friends I haven't seen in almost a year and I saw Alan tonight which was cool to catch up. I am debating going to Lafayette to go to church and hang out with Rachel- and hopefully some other friends will be there.

Today we also went to see Australia, the movie, so NOT impressed. Don't spend money to see it. It was cool to get out of the house and see a movie on the "big screen".

Lingering thought of the day: I miss my friends a lot. Not just the distance measured in mileage but also the invisible distance forming between some. Makes me sad - and hurt my trust in people even more.

Sunday Chruch -hickup-Date

So today I went to church this morning - It was about God being Number one is lots of different ways. It was pretty good one part that really stuck out to me was "He is number one in creation". Colossians 1:15 states that Jesus Christ is the firstborn over all creation. This point was further elaborated to say all things were made BY God FOR him. For one reason or another this hit me. I feel like it answers a lot of questions, I am not sure which ones but it felt like an answer- a lot of times we always ask why this or that happened to me or why did God let this or that happen at all in this World .... maybe if we stopped thinking so worldly and remember its never about us that question wouldn't come up.

After church I get in my car and it starts making this disgusting noise and shaking. I decide to ignore it and keep driving. Turned out to be a bad idea. Thank the Lord I made it to a gas station and I opened the hood and I saw a line was disconnected so i attached it- works fine now. THANK YOU JESUS

SOoooo the date today was with my Popie (God) I went to panera had dinner and read my God, marriage and family book and then read more of 2 samuel. It was a very refreshing time. I actually didn't want to leave

Weekend Whirlwind

God is so good... This past weekend Rachel got baptized!!! two weekends ago I was there and she was not going to do it and she said she didn't believe at all - she called off being baptized. I then decided I wasn't going to go back for baptism Sunday. However the Lord had different plans and convicted me to go. After a battle of going back and forth on how to get there the good Lord provided a way. I am so stinking thankful that the God has allowed me to watch her progression of not knowing the Lord at all to being totally Sold out to him - she got a tattoo of a bible verse on her neck!!!
The weekend was also very hard a lot of emotions but I think it boils down to betrayal, jealousy, and plain being hurt. I am trying so hard to trust in Jesus and his promises. In the midst of all this a friendship has gained momentum and grown I think and I am so very thankful for her and her support, especially through all of this.

Down Day

I have got to stinkin stop looking on facebook.... I am so sad when ever I see everyone back in west laf hanging out having good times... I miss that so much