Thanksgiving Update

So this Holiday has been surprisingly kinda nice. I got to Indy on Wednesday night and helped do prep cooking - I ended up with the task of baking which is never my role (that belonged to my sister who got married and they had dinner with the other family) never-the-less the desserts turned out really well, I think any way: two tarts and a pie.

I was able to see a bunch of friends I haven't seen in almost a year and I saw Alan tonight which was cool to catch up. I am debating going to Lafayette to go to church and hang out with Rachel- and hopefully some other friends will be there.

Today we also went to see Australia, the movie, so NOT impressed. Don't spend money to see it. It was cool to get out of the house and see a movie on the "big screen".

Lingering thought of the day: I miss my friends a lot. Not just the distance measured in mileage but also the invisible distance forming between some. Makes me sad - and hurt my trust in people even more.

Sunday Chruch -hickup-Date

So today I went to church this morning - It was about God being Number one is lots of different ways. It was pretty good one part that really stuck out to me was "He is number one in creation". Colossians 1:15 states that Jesus Christ is the firstborn over all creation. This point was further elaborated to say all things were made BY God FOR him. For one reason or another this hit me. I feel like it answers a lot of questions, I am not sure which ones but it felt like an answer- a lot of times we always ask why this or that happened to me or why did God let this or that happen at all in this World .... maybe if we stopped thinking so worldly and remember its never about us that question wouldn't come up.

After church I get in my car and it starts making this disgusting noise and shaking. I decide to ignore it and keep driving. Turned out to be a bad idea. Thank the Lord I made it to a gas station and I opened the hood and I saw a line was disconnected so i attached it- works fine now. THANK YOU JESUS

SOoooo the date today was with my Popie (God) I went to panera had dinner and read my God, marriage and family book and then read more of 2 samuel. It was a very refreshing time. I actually didn't want to leave

Weekend Whirlwind

God is so good... This past weekend Rachel got baptized!!! two weekends ago I was there and she was not going to do it and she said she didn't believe at all - she called off being baptized. I then decided I wasn't going to go back for baptism Sunday. However the Lord had different plans and convicted me to go. After a battle of going back and forth on how to get there the good Lord provided a way. I am so stinking thankful that the God has allowed me to watch her progression of not knowing the Lord at all to being totally Sold out to him - she got a tattoo of a bible verse on her neck!!!
The weekend was also very hard a lot of emotions but I think it boils down to betrayal, jealousy, and plain being hurt. I am trying so hard to trust in Jesus and his promises. In the midst of all this a friendship has gained momentum and grown I think and I am so very thankful for her and her support, especially through all of this.

Down Day

I have got to stinkin stop looking on facebook.... I am so sad when ever I see everyone back in west laf hanging out having good times... I miss that so much

My popie (daddy) Loved on me yesterday

I always ask God to show me his love or reach out just so I know he is for real and there. Yesterday I totally felt it... I went to church and like usual just kind of sitting by myself and at the end of service this lady came up to me and said "You know I try to do what the Lord asks of me and he told me to come pray for you so ...here I am ...can I pray for you?" I started crying ( which i have started to realize I am a major crier..I think i was in major denial before and said I wasn't but I so am)... Noone ever does that to me and I loved it! Especially it being so random and from a stranger.

Thank you popie

I love my car - yes that '93 Ford beat up Escort

There have been a many a lessons that I have been learning since being here but one of the most pressing... (not THE most pressing but still pressing) lessons has been from what I like to now call a "Life Verse" of mine:

"Therefore, I urge you, bothers, in view of God's mercy, to offer your bodies as living sacrifices, holy and pleasing to God- this is your spiritual act of worship. DO NOT conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is- his good, pleasing and perfect will." Romans 12:1-2

woo just typing that verse out made me think about a lot of things and I know there has to be a zillion things packed in there that I have yet to have a revelation on but most of all if that not transforming to the pattern of this world. Which brings me to the title of this blog... dum duh dda ... "I love my car- yes the '93 Ford beat up escort" every day it reminds me I am not of this world. It's like a daily reminder to be confident in the Lord and his views and not this world. I have been made fun of already for my car and at times I find myself thinking why not just go get a car... you can make the payments.... but then a remember that here in America your status and worth is judged by what car ou drive where you live what you have and I do not live by that set of standards. Thank you Jesus.

Now mind you in just rereading that verse I have a laundry list of things I just know God wants to teach me about - since currently I really have no idea what they mean. A nonexahusted list is as follows:
be transformed by the renewing of your mind...hmmm (possible going through that now but not sure)
Test and approve God's will?? What on earth does that mean?
His good perfect and pleasing will? What does Good mean?

Either way I praise God for faith ... because I have no idea about him sometimes.

A DesWeekend

So this weekend was actually enjoyable! Friday was a little weird though... My cousin Steph's friend passed my name on to her cousin who lives in Columbus and said that if he was ever in town to give me a call. So he did and he came to pick me up and he saw me and I really think he thought I was black ( because my cousin is) and he was really shocked. It was a little awkward and funny at the same time. Made me think about judging people ahead of time.

AnyWHO ...We ended up meeting up with his cousin and we went to this whole in the wall restaurant that played live jazz and it was sweet.

Saturday I hung out with fellow boilermakers. There is a Purdue Alumni Ass here so we went to a bar where they were all watching it. Then we went to see Macbeth at the new playhouse that just opened. The whole time I was trying to remember highschool and what was going on. It was still cool to watch. Then we went to this wine bar then dancing. It was nice doing something other than JUST the clubs.